If you read this...

You know, for a very long time I've held a grudge against you, from jealously and feeling like I was in your shadow. I felt like others cared more for your screw-ups and faults than they did for my best accomplishments and characteristics. I can't say that I like the person you are and have been to me, but I feel like I can say that I'm not in competition with you anymore. I don't want to compare myself to you anymore, not because I think you may be better, but because I think I've realized that we are just two different people. We have our own accomplishments, journeys, mistakes, choices, and personalities. Yes, there will be times where I still will get angry when I think you have something great and didn't have to work for it or you don't even realize it is there and take it for granted; however, I have realized that I have as just as many blessings as you, just in different forms and that I may have not seen them before because I was envying yours. I think that I may have brought out some of the worst in you and I definitely know that I looked for it when judging you. I'm sorry for that, but please know that as a fellow child of God, I love you...and I forgive you for what you've done to me and hope you do the same for me. As a person, we might not quite click but please know that I do love you and am here if you ever want to call on me. I'm sorry to say this to you like this, but I don't know of any other way you'll see it. You know that this is to you , that is if you read this.