How to make a relationship work...

"Bottom line: It's couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something. "
-Scrubs, J.D.

If you read this...

You know, for a very long time I've held a grudge against you, from jealously and feeling like I was in your shadow. I felt like others cared more for your screw-ups and faults than they did for my best accomplishments and characteristics. I can't say that I like the person you are and have been to me, but I feel like I can say that I'm not in competition with you anymore. I don't want to compare myself to you anymore, not because I think you may be better, but because I think I've realized that we are just two different people. We have our own accomplishments, journeys, mistakes, choices, and personalities. Yes, there will be times where I still will get angry when I think you have something great and didn't have to work for it or you don't even realize it is there and take it for granted; however, I have realized that I have as just as many blessings as you, just in different forms and that I may have not seen them before because I was envying yours. I think that I may have brought out some of the worst in you and I definitely know that I looked for it when judging you. I'm sorry for that, but please know that as a fellow child of God, I love you...and I forgive you for what you've done to me and hope you do the same for me. As a person, we might not quite click but please know that I do love you and am here if you ever want to call on me. I'm sorry to say this to you like this, but I don't know of any other way you'll see it. You know that this is to you , that is if you read this.

Going away to a better future

I decided to stay at home for my first two years of college, but I have a few friends that are leaving for it. It's hard as I say goodbye to each one and see pictures of their suitcases and new dorms, but I know that they are moving toward a better future. I know we will keep in touch the best we can, but I know that some are going to drift off into their own lives as I will drift off into mine. But for all of my friends that are leaving, I have high hopes for them and I can't wait to see pictures of them as graduates of colleges, universities and soon doing the career they are working toward now.

In hopes of better futures

-That Random Ninja

What I don't want

I met him.

I went on a date with him.

I hugged him.

I kissed him.

I fell in love with him.

I am planning a future with him.

What I don't want?

I don't want to ever lose him.

From the in-love, proud-to-be-his, can't-wait-for-forever-with-him,
     That Random Ninja♥

RE:

In addition to the post i just made, i understand if one parent is not fit to be a parent or spouse due to abuse or negligence. and other circumstances

Parents are a unity not units.

My parents divorced when i was one and my mother's parents divorced when she was young. In both generations the children lived with their mother and had visitation with their fathers. My Grandma has told me stories of when she was struggling to put food on the table for herself and her four children and those children would come home from visitations with their dad and show off the mcdonalds trinkets to her saying "look what daddy got us!" all the while, making her feel 2 inches big.
I heard my brother scream that he hated my mom and wish he were with his dad growing up and i myself had the feelings that i had to always choose between the 2 parents.

Never will my child have to choose between their parents. my husband will realize beforehand that marriage is for a lifetime and i wont accept divorce. I will be treated right as a woman should and i will care for him as a man should be cared for but we will be seen as an unity from our kids. Not as mom or dad but 'my parents.' together.

It has been a very nice day at the beach. Today, after tending to the house, we went to the shore for a few hours. It was sunny and bright and the water was warm. Oh, it was so lovely today!

I also had alot of fun playing around with Unkie Dusty and jumping off the back of the boat. The water was so calm but the current was really strong. I got some sun but I'm not burnt.

I'm glad we get to go for a full day tomorrow and half a day on Sunday. I'd like to stay longer but I have work and I miss Scruffy. I wish he were here with me. He loves the beach and I miss him so much. Maybe next time he can come. I hope so. I keep seeing all these couples and it reminds me that he's not by my side right now. :(

Well I need sleep for more fun in the sun tomorrow!

Only about an hour left before I hit the beach with Unkie dusty=)