Priorities

 My mom, whom I live with, has a boyfriend that i cannot stand, Sasquatch. Because of my disdain for him and his drunk outbursts, I refuse to go on trips with them. I spend most of the time away from home because I go to high school and work 20 hours a week. Also, all of my friends have told me they do not want to visit my house because they don't like him and are uncomfortable with him here, so i hang out with Scruffy and any of my friends elsewhere. So, basically, I'm not home much. I don't get to see my mom much and don't get to go on vacations with her,

My step sister, Rebecca, is 19. She isn't graduating this year and she lives with my dad and her mom. She does not have a job, nor her license. She gets rides everywhere from her boyfriend, who pays for almost everything for her but struggles himself, and her mom, who pays for everything he cannot. Rebecca takes her family for granted. She does not hesitate to argue with her mom, and almost never is home. She has done me wrong to the point where i want nothing to do with her and would not if it wouldn't cause problems in the family. In the past, she used to have sisterly moments with me half the time, but then she set me up to make it look like i was trying to steal her boyfriend, and has done countless other things to me. The last straw was when she took my bed out of our room because she said i do not visit enough to keep a bed that takes up space. I have a job that prevents me from visiting at my dad's house or going on vacations with them. To give her the benefit of the doubt, i will say that she does have troubles and her childhood wasn't perfect.

I am going to make a pretty bold and honest statement. I am jealous of Rebecca and that is part of the reason I can't stand her. I am not jealous of her looks or her boyfriend (I don't like him and plus, I have Scruffy ♥). I am envious of the privilege that she gets that I do not. She gets to spend time with her parents. Everyday, she gets to go home and talk to her mom. She can go with her and my dad on vacations. She has time to do that and still see her boyfriend. I hear that she is jealous of me, but for superficial reasons. What pisses me off about this is that she gets all these opportunities and she complains! Anytime, she is guaranteed to have something to complain about! And it kills me because here I am, just wishing I could spend time with my mom on a weekly basis, or even see my dad at all! (I am a daddy's girl by the way).  She goes to the beach with her parents  many times a year without even a second of gratitude, and I work hard to be able to even speak to my parents several times a week. And then she complains about not getting this shirt or obeying curfew! I know it could be worse, and I know that at this moment I am being no better than her, and I am grateful for what I do get, but to prove my distress over this, I want you guys to know something. For my 18th birthday, I am asking my dad for a 2 day trip to the beach for the two of us. I miss him so much.