Losing people who aren't going away forever.

For the most part, home has been amazing.....and heartbreaking. Spike (my brother) and I have gotten to hang out and joke and just relax these last few days, which has been so wonderful. And, as I watch the boxes in his room fill up so he can move in with his dad four hours away, its breaking my heart because I know this great sibling time is limited. Spike will leave, and no matter how many times he visits, or for how long, we will never be as carefree or innocent as we are now. Things will never be the same. I finally have my brother. I finally deserve to have my brother, after I have spent so many years tormenting him, and now he's going to leave soon. I'm going to miss him so much and it kills me because it doesn't just feel like he's leaving for just a little while. I feel like these are the last few times I'll have with him.